Back problems part 2

What I figured I would do is do this in parts. Once I get how this all came to be, I'll then post regularly. So now back to my back problems. During this time with my back pain, I found my love of reading. I used to read here and there when I was a teen, but stopped when I started working. Because of not being able to sit for periods of time, I really couldn't watch television. So I picked up a book, because I could walk around and read when I got uncomfortable sitting. I was reading a book a day. I get giddy with excitment when new books would release. I would even deal with being in pain and drive three to four hours away to go to book signings. It's like meeting your favorite celebrity, my palms would sweat. The places these authors would take you with their words are wondrous. I love it! After dealing with severe pain for a few years, my father recommend me to his doctor. I was reluctant to go because I didn't want another doctor telling me to take naproxen for pain and have a injection in my lower back. But I decide to go in the end. Now on the day I scheduled to go see the doctor, I found out my seventeen year old niece was killed in a car crash along with her boyfriend leaving behind a 5 month old baby girl, who will never know her parents. I should have cancelled the appointment but I decided to go because I thought it would help get my mind off things. So when I finally met the doctor and he asked what was going on, I broke out in tears. I told him how bad my pain was and how it has effected my way of living. I also told him how I don't like going to doctors because I feel they just jerk you around, never really fixing the problem. I told him I was exhausted with it to the point I cry in the shower every night. People who deal with pain everyday, it really is a stressful way of life. He told me he understands and will send me to a specialist. He also put me on pain meds, which was a first. Finally!!! Someone who believe I was in pain. Now let's see what this specialist will say and if they would do something or recommend a injection.